It's Just The Way We Are

To ignore
To suffocate

To want
To crave
To need

For those who have
To ignore

Look into the nothing and understand where you belong, not where others tell you to be.

For those who have
To suffocate

It is not your nature to let them go, but it may be your destiny. Follow your instinct

For those who have
To want

Think.

For those who have
To crave

A new beginning. And it may be painful, but you must not let it strike you down to the point where you do not get up again.

For those who
Need.

Your thirsts will be quenched, your pockets filled, your cup runeth over, your heart in a million pieces. Remember.

For those who try
To remember
To forget

Don't.

For those who try
To rise
To fall

Stand still. You'll get there.

For those who
Hate
Love

"Twist me and turn me, show me the elf. I looked in the mirror and found myself."

No.

Barbeque, pool parties, fireworks.
Is that all? Because while you were free, we were not.
No one
Without straight hair
No one
Without blue or brown eyes
No one
Without pale, white skin
Is free
Not us

When?
April 18th, 1865
That is our independence day
That is when we became free
As for the rest of you in 1776?

This is not my independence day.

Sure, I'll see the fireworks
Because I am a patriot
I know that many
Were not as lukcy
As we

So enough with ignorance
If only for a day.
For at least 70% of all of us.

Edward Scissorhands

isn't he cute?

Accomplishment!

A few months ago, I entered the national student poetry contest. I got a letter (so old fashioned, right?) yesterday that said even though they haven't announced the winners yet, they want to publish this poem in the gold edition of their 2010 entries book. Yay! :D

So here it is:


The Rain

Raindrops on my window,
Causing lack of sleep,
Causing me to dream,
Causing me to think.
Sliding down the pane,
And I think of tears,
And I think of years,
When tears were here.
Rushing over rooftop,
To the gutter stream,
Down the pipe and rolling,
To their destiny.
All the nights I’ve cried,
All the days I’ve smiled,
All the mornings new,
When smiles would hide.
Listening to the soft, sweet, sound,
Hoping love won’t pass me now,
Pain exits with a deep bow,
Hear the raindrops hit the ground.

You Are...

The center of soo many peoples' worlds...Or so it seems
How is that so?
How is that possible?
For us to be so self-centered & desperate to please that we loose track of
who we are, who you are?
That's not how any of you are.
Come on.
Just let it go.
If you have shown your trust, your reasons
You will not be left
Alone

you & you & you & you & me

why are we all so needy? is it to be human to be needy or is it something developed, unavoidable.

lakers won!

iLive under a rock :D

Camp & Water

Camp

MEP
What fun.
Vending machines in the basement

Water

everywhere.
it rained. hot rain. the kind that makes you want to open your mouth and take a sip.
quench the thrist of your soul.
running down your shirt.
drenched and you don't care.

kiss the sky and smile.

ihm home :D

This Is Not Goodbye. This Is Not The End.

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow

And each road leads you where you want to go

And if you're faced with the choice and you have to choose

I hope you choose the one that means the most to you

And if one door opens to another door closed

I hope you keep on walkin' til you find the window

If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile

But more than anything, more than anything

My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small

You never need to carry more than you can hold

And while you're out there gettin' where you're gettin' to

I hope you know somebody loves you [:

And wants the same things too

Yeah, this is my wish

I hope you never look back but you never forget

All the ones who love you and the place you left

I hope you always forgive and you never regret

And you help somebody every chance you get

Oh, you'd find God's grace in every mistake

And always give more than you take

But more than anything, yeah more than anything

My wish for you

Is that this life becomes all that you want it to

Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small

You never need to carry more than you can hold

And while you're out there gettin' where you're gettin' to

I hope you know somebody loves you

And wants the same things too

Yeah, this is my wish

One day

You will be
At the U.S. Open

In the LPGA

A therapist o_o

Able to love freely (yes you)

So call me

IM me

Contact me

Because I'm not leaving

I'm just a click away

:D

hey, we have all summer {:

iWanna Believe

If we do the unthinkable
Would it make us look crazy
If you ask me I'm ready
 
:D

mmhm :)

We
All
Have
Things to do
And things to say
Just not right now
Just not this place
And I should like to follow you
Not stalking you
Just walk with you
And if you let me
I'd love you
You'd have no reason to worry
"Is she true?"
Oh, yes, my love
And keep your head up
Till the rain comes
And washes the tears from your eyes
tears from your life

idk.itjustcametomeh =)

Tragic

D:

Simple

Interpret me
As I appear to be
Because for you
I'll do the same
Is it a problem
That I feel so honored
Whenever you speak to me?
We are both human
Have so much in common
Yet,
Nothing is the same
Enough with being bi or les or straight
Just love who you feel
You should

Cousins
I can't even imagine
Yet I liked you both
Past&Present

You don't talk that much
But I feel we are similar

Interpret me
As I seem to be
Because for you
I'll never give up

Small World

no not the place in disneyland.

i lost my phone this past weekend on Alameda Beach,

no effin chance.

turns out, one of the people doing the canoe races around the bay found it and called the "last number dialed". my mom. the person lives in san ramon, works at the same company as my mom, in the same building, practically down the hall. when my mom went to get the phone, they met. for the first time.

thanks God. you really must've stretched on that one. :D

"I am dissappointed."

I know you are Mama, I would be too.
I'm a failure.
I lost my band our winning streak of first place drum majors.
I messed up during both competitions.
And I lost my phone.
All in one day.
In less than twelve hours.

Trust me, I'm trying to forget.
But then it comes back again, like an unremovable stain.

Why am I such a screwup?

Aloha Baby

dance tonite.
go to church
and practice
and beg people to go to a stupid park

Cause if tonite is my last [chance]
What I gotta do?
And if tonite is my last
I wanna spend it with you.

♥

Peace Be With You. And Also With You.

And I know

You're smiling down

On me from

Heaven

Like so many

Friends we've

Lost along

The way

And I know

Eventually we'll

Be together

One Sweet day

eventually I'll see you in heaven

I Hate It When

you cry.
you worry.
you reject.
you block.

so please.
we care.

don't let me feel your teardrops
running down my cheek.

C'mon

hey.
its okay.

pray for that chance.
theres always a chance.
love it. embrace it.

Storytime #2

here's the second segment of my story:

Chapter One

   "Some game last night James."
   "Thanks," I said to the random stranger.
   "Yeah well, Mr. Lewis here has more where that came from," the girl on my arm, Mandy Fisher, yelled.
   The hall let out a cheer as I walked to lunch.
   The outdoor courtyard was a swarm of black and yellow. The cheerleades and marching band were there, congratulating the football team on their win the previous night.
   "I have to go but I'll be back," Mandy said, tousling my hair. I nodded and went over to sit with my friend Marc. I laughed when I saw him.
   He was wearing the brightest yellow pants ever and a black short sleeve shirt. His bag was yellow with black stripes.
   "I know what you're thinking," he said. "Could it get any gay-er? And the answer is 'yes'."
   "Whatever," I replied. "You're the best water boy our team has ever had, gay or otherwise."
   "And mascot," he reminded me. "But hey, you're not 'ThatGayGuy'sBestFriend' anymore. You're 'StarFootballPlayerOfTheSouthBayYellowJackets'. Ohh, the cheerleaders are starting. I gotta go."
   Marc ran over. Someone passed him his giant yellow jacket head and they started their routine. Mandy was in front.
   "Y-E-L-L-O-W Jackets!" they yelled. "We will sting you. High and mighty, rain or shine. We'll beat you before the first nine. Here to win and ready to fight, tell us where and we'll sting alright!"


Okay so thats all I have for now. I know the cheerleaders are a little cornyt but watevs. Leave  a comment.

natural lol :D

"Yay. Pants." ~James Pitcavage

Level

We all have a level. May God Bless that you will find someone who's on yours.

I found them today. I would have liked to have a date to the last dance, a hand to hold, a person to share.

You said you weren't ready. And I like you enough to respect that.

It's better this way, without them knowing.

dont stop

belevin'

hold on to that

feelin'

coupla songs :D

I know a girl

She puts the color inside of my world

But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me
Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

I'm a wildflower

Growing in the sunshine

Soaking up the way of life

I was raised in

Runnning barefoot through

A summer shower

Oh yeah

I can't help it

I'm a wildflower

 

Feels like I'm standing in a timeless dream
Of light mists, of pale amber rose
Feels liek I'm lost in a deep cloud of heavenly scent
Touching, discovering you
Those days of warm rains come rushing back to me
Miles of windless summer nights
Secret moments shared within the heat of the afrernoon
Out of the stillness soft spoken words
Say it, say it again.
I love you always forever
Near or far, closer togerher
Everywhere I will be with you
Everything I will do for you
You've got
The most unbelievable blue eyes I've ever seen
You've got
Me almost melting away
As we lay there
Under a blue sky with pure white stars
Exotic sweetness
A magical time
Say it, say it again.
I love you always forever
Near or far, closer togerher
Everywhere I will be with you
Everything I will do for you
Say it, say it again.
I love you always forever
Near or far, closer togerher
Everywhere I will be with you
Everything I will do for you
Say you'll love me forever
Never stop, never whatever
Near and far and always everywhere and everthing
Say you'll love me forever
Never stop, never whatever
Near and far and always everywhere and everthing
Say you'll love me forever
Never stop, never whatever
Near and far and always everywhere and everthing
Say you'll love me forever
Never stop, never whatever
Near and far and always everywhere and everthing
Say it, say it again.
I love you always forever
Near or far, closer togerher
Everywhere I will be with you
Everything I will do for you
Say it, say it again.
I love you always forever
Near or far, closer togerher
Everywhere I will be with you
Everything I will do for you
Say it, say it again.
I love you always forever
Near or far, closer togerher
Everywhere I will be with you
Everything I will do for you
I love you always forever
Near or far, closer together

Oh Fudgecrackers!

my potty mouth has been punished. okay then, i can live with that. iWont say this and this and that anymore but i can sure as anything come up with a substitute. just you watch Papito!!
iKnow you will read this, we talked about this. you didnt come swimming. was the water too cold? D:
 so anyway. i should probably give a mushroom about this but hey, life goes on.

anyway if you leave a comment, leave an anonymous comment!

Story Time

I am writing a new story. I think I'll post it on here in sections to get feedback. it's really weird. i'll be ecstatic if anyone reads it at all. so, be kind (if thats possible) and listen to the first few sentences i have:

Prologue

     The rag rubbed against my cheeks, leaving the skin raw. My wrists bled as the rope bit into them.
     I was dizzy from the anesthetic he had injected me with. The spot where the needle had punctured me was red and swollen.
     I could tell I was in a car. My head was against the car door. I saw lines of trees speeding past as my vision faded in and out.
    My eyes wandered to the driver's seat. He kept glancing back at me. The first time he saw me with my eyes open, he punched my leg. a splitting pain seized me and i knew it was broken.
    I yeled and he pulled over to the side of the road. He came around and picked me up.
    It was no small fea considering I was a fifteen year old boy on the football team. Tears ran down his crimson smeared cheeks. He threw me into the nearest ditch and sped away.
   My head hit a rock and I passed out.


Okay so there you have it. the prologue of my new story. feel free to leave comments about spelling and grammar and conventions and just what you think of it in general.  :D

We All Do

If you're goin' through hell keep on going

Don't slow down if you're scared don't show it
You might get out before the devil even knows you're there
When you're goin' through hell keep on movin'
Face that fire walk right through it
You might get out before the devil even knows you're there

Look Above This

it's a red fish white fish world.

we all have to be the red fish sometimes.

living in a world of stereotypes and cliques that all blend together. the other fish. being unique means "outcast".

just you wait.

soon, everyone will want to be different.

myturntobetheredfish D:

Why, Love?

I think you're scared
It's so strange
So alien
So
Unnatural
That you weren't the author
The source of this story
You weren't
The star of the show
You were
The supporting actress
The sideline girl
The spectator
Not the performer
The shock that someone
Loves you
And you didn't love them first
Is too much to handle
To comprehend
"What did she say?"
You whisper
I can see you
Read your lips
As they run to you, to speak the news
I'm right here
Ask me yourself
Yes
You are scared
And scared to say so

Yes, Love. I Kept It.

Not stalky.

Devotion

That's All Folks!!

before the clock strikes midnight.
before the carriage to a pumpkin
the gown into tatters
the slipper to the stairs

let me say something about love

for true ones like you.

have no worry, have no doubt
in yourself, in each other, in your arms
caress gently, love lightly, live passionately
on the edge, in the light, in the moment
do what feels right, follow your gut
in tight situations, in loose ones too
never forget the glass slipper that turned into a shoe

"Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly." ~Rose Franken

Just like you two. Ahh what joy you bring to those you cannot see.

so dont look for me. :D

The Hummingbird

A few months ago, iWas in my backyard, cutting the rosebushes, when a hummingbird began to buzz frantically around my head and the yard waste bin. I had just thrown some branches in. curious, i pulled one out and examined it more closely.

in the crook of two branches sat a nest. (See "The Nest")

iFelt awful, as iShould. iMean, iJust destroyed a home, a nursery for life.

Desperately, I shoved the branch into a flowerpot and put it next what was left of the rosebush. I didnt cut the next one over and then continued cutting the rest.

As iFinished my trimming, iWent back to the flowerpot, only to see the hummingbird pulling out bits with her beak. iShrugged and went inside.

Well, on Wednesday, my mom sent me outside to trim the rosebush iHad skipped and a few other plants. again, iSaw the hummingbird but decided to check the bush this time. To my surprise, iSaw another nest in the bush, deeply hidden, containing two small cream colored eggs the size of jellybeans.

iSmiled.

Such hope. Such determination. Such a mother.

And I.

Such A Home-Wrecker Turned Good.

:D

who reads this anyway? oh well. its the thought that counts right? (wait that doesnt apply here, lol) w/e

04.07.10

We left this morning and ate at a Meditteranean cafe. iHad pancakes to die for and bacon. greasyyum. then i saw these.

Yes, it is sugar. but these specific ones. so striking. so simple. so sweet. i grabbed them. yell theif if you want but seriously?

its the simple pleasures of life that keep us strong.

GOOD DAY!! GOOD END TO SPRING BREAK ADVENTURES!!

now going home. yay. fun.

Life Is Like A....

puzzle




thousands of pieces you find on your path. a little celebration every time you find one that fits.





And you won't be done until your dying day.

This puzzle, however, is a simple one compared to you and me. 500 pieces. of London. completed in a total of 4 hours. no big deal.

But iStill like the puzzle=life analogy. my favorite stage of a puzzle life is love and finding it. ihm so damn sentimental. oh well.

GOOD DAY!!

04.06.10

Well, today we did six miles total of hiking. I saw this beautiful waterfall called Pfeffier Falls.

(Sorry no pic!)

GOOD DAY!!

04.05.10

Today, we went to the beach and had lots of fun.

This little guy washed up on the beach for a nap. Cute huh?

GOOD DAY!!!

04.04.10

Okay, Easter, BRING IT!!


My Mom and I went to Seaside and began to "camp"

Yes, I know what you are thinking "Embassy Suites doesn't mean camping"

It does when your campsite is next the river that is swelling up in the freezing rain.

so there. give me a place with a roof and a bed

iPick Embassy Suites (me or mom, no matter)

GOOD DAY!!

Break It Down Baby

Spring Break
What a beautiful thing to discuss
LETS DO IT!!

LaLaLa

hello love. little brown dumpling!! welcome home

Simply Nice

You make me
smile
like the sun
fall
out of bed
Sing
like a bird
dizzy
in my head
Spin
like a record
crazy
on a Sunday night

You make me
dance
like a fool
forget
how to
breathe
Shine
like gold
buzz
like a bee
Just the thought of
you can
drive
me
wild
Oh, you make me
smile

Please

make me laugh before i cry. ihm about to cry and i dont know why. i didnt mean to be so nosy. you need your space. i understand. please make me laugh.

you are a perfect girlfriend, but only hers, only hers. when it is breached, you must let go. let her go. not the good her, the other one.

two people. i had to let her go. she is suffocating you. please let her go. i love her, and i love you but she cant love you, she'll kill you. and you will kill her as well.

let go.  she only used me.

what makes you think she'll change?

Really Guys?

google changed its name to a popular city in Kansas because they did vice versa.

iAm not sure iLike it.

its TOPEKA

http://googleblog.blogspot.com/2010/04/different-kind-of-company-name.html

Ohh Lovely

have you ever noticed the many uses of a large bathroom stall?

iHave

♥ you kids

:D

♥

so iCan never loose them again

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or you ♥

:D

I'm not crazy  I'm just a little unwell
I know right now yo can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impared
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me

Instinct

Do you  beleive in hidden meanings? Secret code? To say a feeling?
Express emotion. What is emotion? Who thought "emotion" so we have it now?
What is "true love"? Only what you feel is right? What others say is?
What is lust? A longing or a craving? (iCrave you) A need?
Invisibility. Can it be acheived? Would you let me see? (tee hee : D)

Pull the cord. Drape the cloak. Hold your breath.

jump.

Was I Missed?

it's felt like forever since i've blogged. i like to blog and i wanna tell everyone how i feel. if you dont like it, get over urself.

iDid

The Nest

a bird's
and you say

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ahh
such randomness
thanks

I say iLoveyou a little too much

AND THEN IT SPOILS! :D

but I will say it

Again
And
Again
And
Again
And
Again

Until it is right

Happy Valentine's Day!

Love
Isn't real
Until you find them
Your "other half"
"Soulmate"
If there is such a thing
Such a person
Such a blessing

Then say
What you must
To let them know
Let them love
Even if you are not their
"Other half"
"Soulmate"

Say it softly
Let them go
Let them love
Let them search

iLoveyou;D

Ahh. Hello.

A new reader.
Preguntas, preguntas.
You are full of preguntas.

Butyouareveryspecial!

Iloveyou ;D

She's Nice

ahh.
a new part of my life
this should be good

iLikeheralready! ;D

For You Two

Finally
Someone's happy
and its genuine

Iloveyouboth :D

Dose #2

I agree but maybe silence is less painful:

"If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go."~Anonymous

Cracked

just happened. right now. during homework

there are tears.

i dont know if i can do this anymore. this "life" thing
death doesnt seem right, but
is there an inbetween?

damnit. help me already.

are you there??? D':

Daily-ish Dose #1

we all need some. not too much. then it spoils:

"When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams." ~Dr Seuss

Happy Birthday Mama

you're a beautiful woman! and i love you. you will always care. that means a lot!!! you dont even know i have a blog but you are a part of it!! hahaha.

I LOVE YOU. this time i mean it. <33333

Maybeh

happiness does exist. there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. and my life doesnt have to revolve around one thing. it can be you and me and everyone else who wants to be here. i will love you all with the love you give to me. thats what we need. love every day. some dont get it. give extra. show extra. let it spill off onto the love-deprived.

who reads mah crap anyway...
YOU ARE RIGHT NOW!! =]

Iloveyou;

We were given: Two hands to hold. To legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find. ~Unknown

Iloveyou; But I havent found the other half. Thank goodness. If I had found it now, I wouldve had to let it go. And I dont think i could do that

Hanging On The Edge

I am the frog.

Don't push me cuz ihm close to the edge. Hence the picture. Thank you Kimmy.

He Is....♥

yup thts right.

i am hella random. iWill flop, just like tht.

but he's perfect. and he defends. and he's perfect. and i think i mite love him.....

but i wouldnt kno. love doesnt exist in MS only lust....♥

Over It

everyone has their phases.

No offense, my awesome W!

Another V day

Valentine's Day is almost here.
another one alone (not like that's anything new)

That's not the point. Is there a time when you feel so unwanted that you just don't want to love?
You want to be loved but you can't love. Because of being Broken.
I am broken.

But who would understand.

This was supposed to be a good day, damnit!

Here I go.
watch out, here comes the raincloud....

Beautiful

If I had to choose between loving you and breathing, I would use my last breath to say I love you." ~ Anonymous

Listen Up

I'm only gonna say this once:

is it wrong to love? love what is forbidden by society? to be rebellious and not care? to understand what's inside of you and let it out so it can't kill you, slowly.

don't kill me. repsect me for who i am. for what i feel.
so tell me, is it wrong? to love?

to love her as if she were a him?

The Light At The End Of The Tunnel

read the title. i am serious. think about it.

am i the only one who relates that to death?
the light at the end of the train tracks tunnel? really. if you see a light at the end of a tunnel, what else could it be besides sunlight or a train? and by the way, the train wins.

given.

when people are in pain or whatever and they say "i can see the light" that doesnt mean they are getting better. that means they are getting closer.

to the end of their tunnel.



it's just me, isnt it?

The hardest thing to do is to watch the one you love, love someone else ~Anonymous

Damn. that is soooo true.

And it hurts.

Who Says

who says you have to like anyone?
i dont know if i do. would it matter?

no one cares about me anyway.
they just pretend.
damn being able to pretend.

you get too good at it and then you become something that is pretend.

love

i am in middle school but you would not believe how many times a day i hear two people say "I love you!"

the girls with their giggles

the boys with a tone of being forced

in 10 years, will they have forgotten each other? forgotten that they "loved" each other?

was love ever sacred or precious?

everything is fake. the "love". the people. everything.

if that's love then i am glad that i dont have it.

Now, who could that be?

They gave her a golden ticket and said congratulations
The only thing that mattered
It turned her day into brightness, despite the previous rain
The golden ticket, no chocolate attatched
Now she could show everyone what she deserved

i really like anime drawings. they take a lot of talent. i searched "anime of the day" and clicked the first thing that came up:


This. Look it up I swear. But look at it. REALLY look at it. the depth perseption of the eyes. they are drawn to look liquid-y. the waviness of the hair.

It takes talent. Talent I personally, do NOT HAVE! lol

Is There An Echo In Here?

I am making a new blog post about teaching a friend how to make a new blog post. lol

Is that repetetive or is it just me?

I need more followers.

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See that? (3)

Low number.

Timeless

Sundays can be REALLY boring.

I got up and 7:30 this morning, who knows why. I did my homework and cleaned my room and vacuumed unwillingly. I ate chicken flavored ramen at 11:30. Then I came back to my computer and read other people's blogs. I saw life as it was and emotion and decided to do it too. Gah, peer pressure.

Dad's outside, raking the lawn, blasting his "timeless oldies" on the ancient stereo in the garage. I am willing to bet the whole neighborhood can hear it, but he's been here for fifteen years and no one messes with my dad.

His birthday is on January 9th and I still don't know what to get.

But it won't be another stinkin tie.